From good turns to bad

Guaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaheeeeeeeeeeee............................(crying) :'( , looks like things doesn’t work out that smoothly on Sunday. Pei Wen and I didn’t talk much that day. I just don’t feel like talking to her today. Pei Wen and one of my friend (a boy also) chat together about something the whole day which is just not my style of talking. It’s sort of like those modern teenagers that talk about handphones and uses Cantonese jokes and words that I’m not that familiar with. So, I just walk with another 3 of my friends and talk a little bit about Buddhism and computer games. I do felt a little angry and jealous though because both of them just walk and chat together as they are the one who are in love with each other. It made me feel uncomfortable. I also felt that may be we are not that suited for each other or we started too early because we haven’t really understand each other even since form 1. I never really chat with her face to face except on the phone and on msn. Then when it is time for lunch, we walk together with another friend to buy something to eat. Still, she was like ignoring me and talk to that other friend of mine only. We were still able to talk for a while but not for long. May be it was me who did not how to communicate and mix with others. After thinking for a while, I started to think who I can really talk with at school. The only good friends I have that I can really chat with is Lychee, Vampire, Yao-Yao, Bold pak cik and Ngan Yan Peanuts .I think they are different from the others. I don’t know how to express this. It is like they are not that modern. We can chat about tv programmes, movies, games, incidents that happen in our daily life and our problems together. Is it because I am too serious or too quiet at certain times. Thinking about this is really stressful and when we about to go home I started to have a headache. Therefore, remember what I said before “don’t expect the unexpected in your life”. It turned out to be a sad and unhappy day for me. I was expecting to be happy and have fun at there but instead I came back with an angry, sad and jealous heart.

Lets stop discussing about this heart-breaking story, it starting to worsen my headache again. Well, today we went and watch a funny and “fei” movie. It is called drink drank drunk. It is a Hong Kong movie. It is also categorized as a love movie. There is a part when Siu Man’s boyfriend meets back his old friend. He came back with a French girl and said that he had picked”pungut or chap” the girl up from the airport. When they arrived at Siu Man’s house both of them kissed and hugged each other in front of Siu Man and his boyfriend. Siu Man and his boyfriend saw that with their mouth wide open(shocked) .Actually the movie has a little sexual inflict but don’t misunderstood me it is not like a porn movie and it is not that serious. It is just because they use some dialogs such as the part when a group of girls quarrel. It is cause when three girls decided to get some customers by wearing sexy clothes. Then Siu Man and her friends did not agree with their method and they started quarrel. The group of girls said that Siu Man and her friends are jealous of them because they were not able to to satisfy men cannot give enough mother’s love because they have small breasts. Then, Siu Man and her friends fought back by saying that it is because the new style is to have small breast. You might imagine this as a very awful movie but if you see for your self and listen in Cantonese you will find it funny and laugh through out the whole movie. Besides as we said we laugh because the movie is really “fei”. That movie also makes us boys and girls look very bad and can’t be trusted. See the movie for yourself and you will understand and started laughing when you think back of the movie. Now, the only thing that I worried is my future with Pei Wen and my exam results that will be given out tomorrow. I am really worried because this is my first experience to love a girl and was hoping to that things will work between us. Unlike some other people who liked to play-play only, I am different because I am serious in his matter.

To my readers, please give me some tips and tell me what is wrong between us. Give me some advice on what should I do in the future. I will greatly appreciate your help if it is a useful tip.

La,la,la it's holiday again

As a start, I want to apologize for the late release of my new blog. I know all of you must be anxious to look at my new blog. Don’t worry because it will be made using Asashi technology. Hoooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy, finally holiday arrived and I can relax and play again(for a while only). I even borrowed Need For Speed Underground 2 from Gorrila. Still, it could turn out to be a happy holiday or half happy-half nightmare for me.

Ok, lets start from Monday. On that day, I went to my friend’s house nicknamed “Goat”. He was quite rich as he have 2 computers in his house. It still made me disappointed because he did not use the technology from Asashi. Instead, his computer are home made. This is because his father is an electronic expert. So, he knows very well how to handle and assemble a computer. His father also like to collect old computer parts such as motherboard, cd-rom, printers and many more as his hobby. He is a lucky kid because he owns a NVIDIA Geforce FX 5500 and 6600 on both of his PC. I went there with 2 of my friends who consist of Lychee and Durian. When we arrived at there, Goat’s family stared at Lychee with a little jealousy in their heart when he took out his Compaq notebook(government’s property). That Lychee did something stupid and did not want us to see it. For your information he is a fanatic of the Romance of 3 Kingdom(San Guo Ze). He cut his own face from his picture using Paint and paste it on top pf Liu Bei’s face thus becoming Liu Chee(adapted from his name) and put the picture as his wallpaper. An hour later, we decided to play Red Alert 2 on lan. So, Goat installed Red Alert 2 and played Warcraft 3 at the same time. Suddenly, his PC crashed and and showed no sign of life. Then, he reboot his PC and when all of a sudden, his PC crashed again when he tried to enter windows. He blamed that at his pirated windows. He tried to boot, reinstalled and use automatic recovery from the windows installation cd. After rebooting for almost 10 times, finally his PC was able to enter windows but as soon as he click on the start menu it crash again. Then he still did not give up and and rebooted another 5 times but this time it worked(Thank God). It was actually a hard disk failure. This wouldn’t had happen if he used Asashi technology.

On Wednesday, I have booked 2 courts at Dewan Dato’ Ahmad Razali. I had planned well with 12 friends before the holiday but guess what happened. Only 4 arrived!!!!!!!!!! In that case, I think I need to invite 20 people. By doing that, I think at least 8 will come. So, we just ignore them and continue playing. Since I had not been playing badminton for almost a month, my performance was decreased at first but after half an hour I was getting the hang of it. When we decided to play double, I was forced to team with Durian. This is because he is very “chuan” and always scolds and “ejek” us when we were unable to play well. We did not even said a word when he hit the shuttle into the net or did something stupid but things were different when we did not played well. He thinks he is very good and he can “pijak” us because he represents the school and had special training from his dad every day.

Eeeemmmm, let me tell something that might happen this Sunday. Last Sunday, Pei Wen asked me if I want to go a movie and a walk at Times Square with some friends. I agreed but I was not that approved with her idea as I wanted to study and my parents won’t be that happy if I go out and play before PMR ends. Still, I don’t want to let her down and therefore I agreed. I was planning on asking her out after PMR when both of us are free to do anything and I have save enough money from my part-time job during the holidays. Then, I can “belanja” or even buy her presents. Things started to get lucky when every person that I asked could not go out. So, I might have the chance to have a personal time with her to know her better. In the end, I hope nothing bad will happen that day and things will go smoothly for us. Namo Amitabha.