A Sailing Trip Into Life.....

This year has been like a sailing trip on the sea for me. Life itself has been quite exciting yet challenging at the same time. During the recent months, my life was like a journey at the seven seas. Life itself was unpredictable. Sometimes, it was as exciting and peaceful like a beautiful sunny day. Sometimes, it was as challenging and rocky like a thunderstorm. Recently, I have experienced yet another déjà vu. It was a feeling I have not felt for quite sometime since I left secondary school. A feeling that makes you restless each time you see that person. An intimate feeling that makes you feel elevated and nervous at the same time each time you talk to her. Yes…..I have developed another crush on a girl. And recently, this feeling just got stronger ever since a chat I had with her via msn.

At first, I have not thought that I would fall in love with her due to the age gap that we have between us. (No….I’m not a paedophile). In fact, she’s four years older than me. However, I don’t really mind the age gap. In my opinion, she’s a wonderful person. Her personal attributes attracts me in so many ways that I don’t even know where to begin to describe. She’s elegant, charming, beautiful, mature, energetic, daring, intelligent, etc…..The list is infinite. She’s just perfect in my eyes.

A few months ago, she told me via msn that she wanted to resign. She said she finds the job boring and stressful. As soon as I knew about this, I was devastated. I suddenly realised how deep my affection towards her is. I began to feel scared; scared that I will never see her again if she resigns. Scared that I will lose any chance to be with her. Scared that we won’t be able to be together like we are now again. At that moment, I knew that I have to tell her about how I felt towards her. And I did….I told her how I truly felt. That I like her and I don’t want her to leave. Actually, I don’t want to confess to her like this. I wanted to tell her this face to face but it’s now or never. I knew that if I don’t tell her then, I would regret it for the rest of my life. I don’t want this relationship to end like the previous one. In fact, I don’t want it to end when it hasn’t even started yet.

After telling her how I felt, she politely rejected me. She said that she wasn’t ready to open her heart yet. After that, I kinda felt disappointed. However, I still felt a sense of relieve that I manage to tell her how I felt at least. Soon after, she gave the letter to our employer. Fortunately, our employer rejected it. In my heart, I felt so happy and relieved that she wasn’t able to resign.

At that time, I truly wished with all my heart that we can stay as we are now even though she didn’t accept me. Actually, who am I kidding? Deep down inside my heart, I still wanted to be with her.

Almost three months has past since she first told me about her resignation. Currently, things are still how they used to be. We are still working together. Occasionally, we would talk either face to face or via msn. Recently, I tried asking her out to watch “Alice In Wonderland” together. However, she said that she’s not free this month. I actually felt quite proud of myself, seeing how shy I was during my 1st crush at secondary school. But I’m not going to give up now. I’ll ask her out again the next time. Hopefully, she would agree during my next attempt and luck doesn’t run out on me.

Exam? What's That? *Updated 2

Since I haven't been blogging for such a long time, I'll write a short post today. Today, I went to KLCC to check out the last day of PC Fair while everyone was cramming on their study notes. I know....I know... I should be studying too. I did this because I have a good reason behind it. I went there because I wanted to :

1. Enquire something about Streamyx




2. Compare other handphone service providers





3. Check out any worthwhile bargains for PC accessories





4. Watch the hot PC Fair promoters





5. Buy birthday presents for Jian Shi, Xinzi and Yan Siong.
   
   

After 3 hours of walking around KLCC, I ended up RM196.35 poorer. Here's what I bought:

A new Glaser mouse

Two cartridges of ink. Apparently, there were good bargains for original HP inks during the PC fair. My ink which normally cost RM60 only cost RM40 for the black cartridge and RM53 for the tri-colour cartridge. Apart from having a good discount, they were giving out free HP stationary sets for each cartridge of ink you purchased.

The stationary sets contain: a stapler, a box of staples,a cellophane tape set, an eraser, a pen and a cute mini bag to store your HP stationary sets. A pretty good bargain wouldn't you say.

I also bought a multi card reader.

A 2GB micro sd card for Jian Shi's birthday present

A pencil case for Xinzi's birthday

And a handphone bag for Yan Siong's birthday.

Hehehe..... Don't worry. I will reveal the pictures when the time comes. For the time being, those presents remain confidential.

However, here are some clues for you to guess what I bought for them.

For Jian Shi's present. You can find the clue in this blog if you read and examine this short post meticulously.

As for Xinzi and Yan Siong's present, here's a picture clue for you to guess the presents.

Another clue for you. They are used to store things.

For those who do not know, Jian Shi and Xinzi's birthday are on the 11th and 12th of Dec. So coincident wouldn't you say?