My Fetish Towards A Girl Whom I Like

In this post, I would like to write a few things about the girl that I like or I love. Ever since form 1, I find that there is only one girl that I feel is special to me. Even though there are also many girls in my school who are quite pretty, I’m still only attracted to her. That girl is Pei Wen. I have never been engrossed in a girl this much in my life. Even though, we haven’t really been in a loving couple relationship before, I still can’t stop thinking about her. The reason I type this post today is because I missed her so much that I can’t do anything else. My head keeps on conceiving the image of her and I can’t stop staring at her pictures which I uploaded to my gallery. Each time I look at her smile, my heart keeps beating faster and my hormone level keeps on increasing. I really felt like hugging her and talking to her. I was kept on distracted by my feelings towards her today when I wanted to do my revision and do some house chores since this week is a holiday. Every time, I tried to think or do something when I’m alone, an image of her would just pop into my mind. No matter what I do, I can’t stop thinking of her. At first, I thought that my feelings towards her have already subsided a little when Pei Wen and my “nemesis” …. got together last year. However, when they broke up at the end of the year, there was a feeling of relieve cum hope inside my heart. This year, we started sitting side by side with each other with only a walking lane that separates our seats. After some time, we started to become a little closer. We started talking to each other and ask questions regarding studies. I realised that I am still very attracted to her. This attractiveness increases as she started to show some signs that she might still have feelings for me. For example, sometimes she would tap my arm instead of just calling my name whenever she wanted to ask me something. There are also some other actions which makes me suspect that I may still have a place in her heart. Every time I walked past her, my eyes would sometimes be averted towards her. There’s a feeling in heart that makes me want to become more intimate with her. Lately during this recent trial exam, I went to sit by her side occasionally to chat with her. Sometimes, I would also wait for her as school ends and we would walk out together. I really felt happy when we were being together. Now, I want our relationship to go even further and become more intimate than just friends. I want us to become a great couple. I want to love her as my girlfriend. I want us to be together in the same school next year. I hope that we would be able to be together forever. She is the only girl that makes me feel this anxious and jittery. There are no other girl that I met before have ever made me feel this way. Pei Wen, I love you.