My Fetish Towards A Girl Whom I Like

In this post, I would like to write a few things about the girl that I like or I love. Ever since form 1, I find that there is only one girl that I feel is special to me. Even though there are also many girls in my school who are quite pretty, I’m still only attracted to her. That girl is Pei Wen. I have never been engrossed in a girl this much in my life. Even though, we haven’t really been in a loving couple relationship before, I still can’t stop thinking about her. The reason I type this post today is because I missed her so much that I can’t do anything else. My head keeps on conceiving the image of her and I can’t stop staring at her pictures which I uploaded to my gallery. Each time I look at her smile, my heart keeps beating faster and my hormone level keeps on increasing. I really felt like hugging her and talking to her. I was kept on distracted by my feelings towards her today when I wanted to do my revision and do some house chores since this week is a holiday. Every time, I tried to think or do something when I’m alone, an image of her would just pop into my mind. No matter what I do, I can’t stop thinking of her. At first, I thought that my feelings towards her have already subsided a little when Pei Wen and my “nemesis” …. got together last year. However, when they broke up at the end of the year, there was a feeling of relieve cum hope inside my heart. This year, we started sitting side by side with each other with only a walking lane that separates our seats. After some time, we started to become a little closer. We started talking to each other and ask questions regarding studies. I realised that I am still very attracted to her. This attractiveness increases as she started to show some signs that she might still have feelings for me. For example, sometimes she would tap my arm instead of just calling my name whenever she wanted to ask me something. There are also some other actions which makes me suspect that I may still have a place in her heart. Every time I walked past her, my eyes would sometimes be averted towards her. There’s a feeling in heart that makes me want to become more intimate with her. Lately during this recent trial exam, I went to sit by her side occasionally to chat with her. Sometimes, I would also wait for her as school ends and we would walk out together. I really felt happy when we were being together. Now, I want our relationship to go even further and become more intimate than just friends. I want us to become a great couple. I want to love her as my girlfriend. I want us to be together in the same school next year. I hope that we would be able to be together forever. She is the only girl that makes me feel this anxious and jittery. There are no other girl that I met before have ever made me feel this way. Pei Wen, I love you.

A Weird Dream

Today, most of the critical exams have passed and I am starting to relieve some of my stress that had disturbed me for the past few days. All that is left are two trivial subjects which are E.S.T and Moral which are quite annoying to me. Tomorrow, I would be taking my Physics paper 3 but that doesn’t make me jitter at all as the exam only starts after recess. That means I have ample of time before recess for me to revise if I think I have missed out a few experiments. Besides, I have borrowed Pei Wen’s Archive of Physics Knowledge to copy some experiments the day before. With her secret archive of Physics and my memory, I think I might be able to pass tomorrow’s exam without any hindrance. So, I’m taking it easy today since I’m not getting enough sleep lately. As soon as I reach home, all I can think of in my mind is sleep. Tuition, computers, games, animes doesn’t matter to me anymore. After taking a nice cool bath and have a scrumptious lunch, all I want is to fall into a deep slumber on my nice comfortable bed. In fact, it was today that I had the most peculiar dream in my life. I dreamt that I went to school!!! I think it was due to the stress in school that caused me to dream of something like that. However, it wasn’t the ordinary school days which I undergo everyday. It was a little different.

My dream started off with me attending school as usual in the morning. However, the school period was very long. In fact, it lasted for a whole day. I remembered that I was attending Biology class at around 8 o’clock at night with al of my classmates. I didn’t feel weird at all. I felt that it was as though school period has always been this long. The dream felt so real!!! However, attending school for this long is still too much for us. Puan Malika, our add.maths teacher entered our class at 1.00 am in the morning. At that time, all of us can’t stand it anymore and we started bragging the Pn Malika to let us go home. Just as we wanted to go home, Liew Hui and Kah Meng decided to jump from the window because they said it is a shorter route than taking the staircase. (Our class is only on the 1st floor) After jumping from the window to get down, all of us felt hungry as we haven’t eaten our dinner. So, we scurried around the town in Taman Kosas to find a restaurant or a stall to dine at. It was around 1.30am. However, the sun has risen as though as it is 9am in the morning. May be, it’s because that I imagined that 1.30am is also considered as morning that caused me to dreamt of such a weird surrounding. Even though at that time the sun was shining bright, there were no stalls opened during that time. Why is that? It’s because it’s 1.30am!!! Who would ever open a stall at that time!!! Everyone is snoring at their beds. However, hunger does not permit us to stop searching for food. Finally we found some food stalls which sells weird food too. I remembered that I bought a bowl of mee, low shi fan with chicken chop. There were also other foods such as Yong Tao Foo and much more. After eating, we went back to the school where we spent the night at there. There was a room which resembled much like my room which I stayed at. I surfed the internet before going to sleep. After I dreamt that I went to sleep, I woke up in reality. When I woke up, I was totally confused. My head was so blank and confused. I can’t differentiate which is reality and dream anymore because my dream felt so real. I have no mood at all to study for my Physic paper 3. However, I felt better after I had taken my dinner with my family.